I'm at work right now and am fairly bored out of my mind, there are only two of us working so i'm in the store and she's in the back room and then we will be switching.  This sucks.  My sister is going to be having her son by Thursday if she doesn't go into labor before that then she will be induced, so I'm excited.  And I have a three day weekend coming up on the 16-18, St patty's weekend, I think I'm going to rent a car and go to wisconsin, I've been wanting to go visit for awhile but haven't been able to.  I get paid tomorrow so I should have the money for it then.  I really can't wait.  All right as for everything else in my life right now.  I have a job so it's keeping me busy, I love the people I work with they're really sweet.  I do have customers who come in and flirt which is amusing alot better than my old jobs where people were married or getting engaged stupid working with jewelry.  The guy matt I was supposed to go out with cancelled due to work and didn't want to reschedule because he just got the xbox360 so it's time for him to take a hike.  I haven't sat down and talked to Cat yet I did write her a long long letter but I'm not a fan of giving people the letters I write when I know it may be taken wrong or it may make them mad.  But everyone keeps telling me to give it to her.  I have been oover to her place a few times, more on the bidding of her boyfriend but I don't know I'm taking it slow with hanging out with her again.  I've been spending a lot of time with Robi at his place.  his one cat had kittens and half of them were born dead and the ones that survived for a few hours 3 out of the 4 died so one out of eight kittens is stil;l alive and the mother isn't taking good care of her so I had to go get heating pads and bottles and all that fun stuff so we have been working on hand feeding her.  I haven't checked in with him for a few days so I'm not sure how she's doing right now.  I need to take my cats and his in to get fixed sometime soon.  Echo is in heat again and my cats are indoors so I don't have to worry about them getting pregnant it just drives me nuts when they go around moaning all the damn time.  And I will be starting up in rpgs again so this should be interesting.  I also told a friend I would help her with making some jewelry but she needs it by the 17th and I don't know how much I will be able to make for her.  But if I'm travelling up to Wisconsin I can hand deliver it which would be better than mailing it but then I would have to make sure I make time to hang out with her, which I won't have much time up there this trip and I have some plans already so I don't know, we'll see.  And I trimmed my hair, took three inches off.  Okay I think that's all that's new with me.  So I'll quit typing now. 

Wow, okay, so I see that I like to post in here when I move. Well I'm back in Illinois. I think i've decided my life is meant to be as a nomad. This is crazy, i'm tired of moving but it's exciting to just keep moving and to never know what to expect. But i tihnk my luck is running out the next time I move I'll have a car and money saved up no spur of the moment crap, it gets me in trouble. it sounds windy outside and I'm gonna be walking soon, that's going to suck.  I'm back with my parents but it shouldn't be too bad I have a completely different attitude this time.  My heart is duct taped and stapled back together as much as it can be and i'm ready to move forward with my life, go back to school, and start doing things I've always wanted to.  I'll be writing a lot more now that I'm back for at least a year and I'm debating joining an rpg again I miss writing very much.  And I've even started reading again.  I'm doing a lot better and it shows.  That's about all for now.  I'll talk to y'all soon.

all right i'm doing good in texas. I have absolutely no internet access as you can tell with how often I update this. We're looking at moving into a house soon and then we should be getting the net. I have three cats now instead of two even though i call the one a little bear because she's all black with no tail. My nipples are pierced as well as my belly button. my hair is about mid back and keeps getting longer so that's awesome. I don't know what else I can't check my e-mail or anything often at all so if you feel like it feel free to write me or call me.
Tracy Drufke
19100 Glenwest Dr #524
Friendswood, TX 77546
832-866-3410
I miss all of

I'm moving into my apartment today so i have no clue when I will be able to get online again. i will try to get everyone my new address and phone number as soon as possible. But I just thought I would say that i love everyone, thanks for the comments. And opefully this will be a good strt to my new life. Take care and keep your heads held high. *muah*

I moved to Texas! It's definitely interesting. Kristen and I are moving into our apartment this weekend. that means next week I need to get one or two jobs so I can pay my bills. i lost my cat for a couple days but she was just outside mating, so now I will have kittens in nine weeks, which shall be interesting. I also lost my hamster but got him back as well. This week I have plenty of internet access but starting next week I don't know when I wille be on the net again. My life has been interesting the past month or so. My ex is still in love with me but he can't be with me right now which is bullshit, if you love someone you can be with them. Anyways I've been typing more in my myspace account. So if you want to check that out it's http://www.myspace.com/tragic_dreams just thought I'd update this briefly.

Take this quiz and find out how girly you are. (GUYS TOO) Put x's beside each thing that's true. Each x that you put is one percent. Have fun!!


[ ] my fingernails/toenails are almost always painted
[x] during the summer pretty much the only shoes i wear are flip flops
[ ] my favorite toy as a child were barbies
[x] my favorite color is pink or purple
[ ] i did/do Gymnastics
[x] i love skirts!
[ ] hollister is my favorite place to shop
[ ] tight jeans are the only jeans i'll wear
[ ] i love chocolate
[ ] i've never had a real job
[ ] my hair is straightened
[ ] i have/had at least 8 myspace pictures
[ ] i usually go shopping once a week
[ ] i hang out at the mall with friends
[ ] i have a real diamond ring/earrings or diamond necklace
[ ] i've had at least 5 boyfriends/girfriends
[ ] i've gone to a tanning salon
[ ] i go to the beach to tan - not to swim
[x] i have at least 10 pairs of shoes
[ ] i watch either the OC or Laguna Beach
[ ] i change my icon weekly
[ ] i would NEVER step foot into Hot Topic
[x] my cell phone might as well become a part of me
[ ] i wear eye shadow, eyeliner, mascara, or cover up everyday
[ ] i've been or am on a diet
[ ] bathing suits are adorable!
[ ] i dont know the difference between a sheep and a goat.
[ ] big sunglasses are hott
[x] i have gotten my nails done
[ ] i own over 10 purses
[ ] MTV is my one of my favorite channels
[ ] all i want to do at sleepovers is talk about boys/girls
[x] i love to have other girls do my hair
[x] i give and receive hugs from all my friends
[ ] i hate bugs, snakes, lizards, spiders
[ ] carnivals are so fun!!
[ ] summer is THE best season
[x] my swimsuit has 2 pieces
[ ] im waiting for my knight in shining armor
[ ] musicians are so hot
[ ] if you write me a poem or tell me im beautiful then im all yours
[x] i am self-conscious.
[ ] i cry often
[ ] my car smells like vanilla
[x] my dishes get washed more then once a week
[ ] i dont do sports
[ ] i HATE to run
[ ] i squeal when i am surprised or angry
[ ] i eat dried fruit as a snack
[ ] i love romance novels
[ ] drew Barrymore is so cute--HOT!
[x] i dance a lot.
[ ] i usually spend over an hour to get ready to leave my house
[ ] i only have like 5 billion hair products
[x] i love to get dressed up.
[ ] every part of my outfit needs to look good on me
[x] i talk on the phone at least once a day to my friends
[ ] i would love to have a photo shoot of myself
[ ] price on clothes hardly matters
[ ] i apply lip gloss 200 times a day
[ ] i wish i were a model
[ ] i wish i could meet Paris Hilton
[x] i have been something that was semi slutty on halloween
[ ] Hip Hop is the best music
[ ] i pop my collar...haha
[ ] i like to be the center of attention
[ ] guys with Mohawks are crazy
[ ] horses are beautiful but i would never ride one
[ ] i'd rather not pay attention in school
[x] animals are adorable
[x] i write poems or my own music
[ ] i love it when a guy/girl wears good smelling cologne/perfume
[ ] i can get very jealous
[ ] i would love to visit Hawaii
[ ] Valentine's day is so cute!
[ ] white is better then black
[ ] i wouldn't be caught dead in all black
[ ] my closet is STOCK FULL of clothes
[ ] i love to read gossip magazines
[ ] i love to gossip
[x] I had Lisa Frank folders, posters as a kid
[ ] i love Celine dion
[x] My bubble baths are 3 hr long
[ ] my wedding only needs a groom, it's already planned
[ ] my friends and i are in a strict group. we mostly only hang out with each other
[x] i like kids
[ ] diet drinks are the best
[ ] i'm all about being vegetarian
[ ] i refuse to eat at McDonalds
[ ] i check my myspace everyday.
[x] i have a lot of jewlery!
[x] claires has cheap jewlery
[ ] my screen names have x's in them
[ ] either one of my myspace names has <3/?'s in them
[ ] i would never want to be the opposite sex
[x] it's not what he said it's the way he said it
[ ] i have more then 3 pillows on my bed

all right so I have gone through half of my bins that were in the garage, they're all sitting in the living room. The other half is in the kitchen and I have no idea when my parents come home, if it's tomorrow or Monday. I'm hoping for Monday. Or else I'm in trouble because I need to go to bed soon. I'm making a list of what I have and then Im going to go over it with kristen and see what I should send down. I'm realizing Rico and Liza kept a shit ton of my stuff, like all of my dvds, my brother's camping bag, and I don't know what else yet. It pisses me off some but oh well not much I can do. I don't tihnk I should write journal entries or talk on the phone when I'm drinking, jsut avoid it all it works best right? Anyways I have a piece of chocolate cake calling my name and a nice warm bed. I have the house all to myself tonight but I can't take advantage of it because I work butt ass early it sucks.

[x] I've been called sexy
[x] I use my body to get what I want
[x] I would say I have a lot of confidence
[ ] I shop at Hollister
[x] I shop at Victoria Secret
[ ] I own more than 15 pairs of thongs
[ ] I wear short shorts
[ ] You would never catch me in a hoodie
[x] I have asked a guy for his phone number
[ ] I have asked a guy on a date
[x] I wear makeup
[ ] I never wear my hair up
[ ] Guys have said I have a hot voice
[x] Its true, I'm seductive

Are You Silly Survey

[x] People have told me that I'm funny
[x] Its true, Girls Just Wanna Have Fun
[x] I would consider myself goofy
[x] I laugh...ALOT
[x] I find humor in almost anything
[x] My friends come to me when they need to be cheered up
[x] I make funny faces
[x] I love to make people laugh
[x] Jim Carrey is so funny
[x] I do have my ditzy moments
[x] I act crazy just for laughs
[x] I drink hot coco
[ ] I LOVE t-shirts that have sayings on them
[ ] I'm hardly ever serious


The Bad Girl Survey

[ ] I've Been arrested
[ ] I've Been arrested More Then Once
[x] I LOVE To Party
[x] I've Been Wasted and Made Out With Someone I Didn't Know
[ ] I've Done Something I Regret While I Was Drunk
[x] I Have Shoplifted More Then Once
[x] I Have An Addiction
[ ] I've Played Truth or Dare More Then Once
[x] I've Gone Skinny Dipping
[x] If It Was Okay To Walk Around In Public Naked I Would
[x] I Have A Huge Secret No One Knows About .
[x] I've Smoked Pot
[x] I Think Beer Tastes Sooo Good
[ ] I Have Snuck Out In The Middle Of The Night
[x] I've Been Grounded More Then 5 Times
[x] More Then 10 Times
[ ] I Consider Myself A "Bad Girl"
[x] I Have Stolen From My Parents
[x] I Have Seriously Thought About Murdering A Person
[x] I Have Thought About Suicide
[x] I Have Made Out With More Then 10 Guys
[x] I Wouldn't Turn Down The Offer To Become A Porn Star
[ ] I Have Taken Nude Photos Of Myself
[ ] I've Been Called A Slut
[x] I've Skipped School More Than 20 Times

The Good Girls Survey

[ ] I Go To Church
[ ] I Wouldn't Even Dream Of Getting Arrested
[ ] I'm A Virgin
[ ] I've Never Even Seen Porn
[x] I've Been In Love
[x] I Think Taking Drugs Is Stupid
[ ] Beer Is Gross
[ ] I Consider Myself A "Good Girl"
[ ] I Dress Classy not Trashy
[x] I Rather Spend Time With My Friends Than A Boy
[ ] I Focus A lot On My Grades
[x] I Study For Tests
[x] I've Never Cheated On A Boyfriend
[ ] I've Never Had A Boyfriend
[ ] I've Never Played Truth Or Dare
[x] I'm Very Polite
[x] I'm Close With My Parents
[ ] I Don't Gossip
[ ] No I Don't Lie
[ ] People Who Cut Themselves Are Mentally Unstable
[ ] Shoplifting Is Wrong And I Would Never Do It



[B][A][S][I][C][S]
|1| What's your name? Tracy
|2| How old are you? 22
|3| Where do you live? illinois
|4| Do you have any siblings? yep
|5| When's your birthday? 12/21/83
|6| What's your religion? none
|7| Do you have any pets? Yep
|8| What school do you attend? none

[F][A][V][O][R][I][T][E][S]
|9| Place to shop: pet stores
|10| Food: chicken tenders
|11| Color: purple
|12| Animal: cats
|13| Song: Shakira - Hips Don't Lie
|14| Actress & Actor: Julia Roberts & collin Farrel
|15| Movie: Robinhood Men In Tights
|16| T.V. Show: Gilmore Girls
|17| Singer: Shakira
|18| Restaurant: Breakwater
|19| Season: fall
|20| Holiday: thanksgiving

[T][H][I][S] [O][R] [T][H][A][T]
|21| Coke vs. Sprite- Coke
|22| Britney vs. Christina- Christina
|23| Dogs vs. Cats- cats
I24| Comedy vs. Romantic- comedy
|25| Snow vs. Rain- snow
|26I Winter vs. Summer- summer
I27I American Eagle vs. Express- Express
I28| California vs. Florida- california
|29| Eminem vs. 50 Cent- Eminem
|30| Single vs. Taken- single

[L][A][S][T]
|31| Instant message: Kristen - Tuesday night
|32| Phone call: Kristen - a few hours ago
|33| Movie: Brokeback mountain - a few weeks ago
|34| Kiss: Elise - End of February
|35| Hug: Cat - Thursday night
|36| Drink: rootbeer - now
|37| Shop visited: Walmart - maybe Tuesday with my mom
|38| Song listened to: Hips Don't Lie - Shakira - right now
|40| Person you yelled at: I have no idea

[H][A][V][E] [Y][O][U] [E][V][E][R]
|41| Went skinny dipping: yep
|42| Stole anything: yep
|43| Smoked: yep
|44| Drank: yep
|45| Danced in the rain: yep
|46| Wished you were someone else: nope
|47| Broken someone's heart: nope
|48| Been out of the country: nope
|49| Dreamed about something insane: yep
|50| Actually slipped on a banana peel: nope

[L][O][V][E]
|51| What's your current status? single
|52| How many people have you been out with? as in out on a date one I think, as in other stuff a lot
|53| Have you ever wished that you could change yourself just to go out with someone? nope
|54| Do you believe in love at first sight? nope
|55| If you could, what and would you change something about yourself to make yourself more attractive? lose my belly and a little bit of my butt and thighs but I like my curves
|56| Do you believe that there is an only one for everyone out there? nope
|57| Name one person worth waiting for. so far no one

Answer 100 % HONESTLY.

Appearance

[ ] I am, or am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I have scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[ ] I wear/need glasses.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life

[ ] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[ ] My biological parents are not together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work

[ ] I'm in school.
[x] In the summer I have a job.
[ ] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I got a perfect attendance award.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll/Dean's List within the last year.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[x] I've stolen something from my job/school.
[ ] I've been fired.

Embarrassment

[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something.
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health

[x] I've gotten stitches.
[x] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I've had a surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling

[x] I've riden over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
[ ] I've been to the Eiffel Tower.

Experiences

[ ] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've been in a car crash.
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[ ] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[x] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Honesty/Crime

[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test/quiz.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been arrested.

Crying/Self Esteem

[ ] I am/have been anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I sometimes hate myself.
[ ] I want somebody to slit my throat, right now.

Materialism

[x] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I used to collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random

[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[ ] I hate hearing songs that don't rhyme.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I'm a sports fanatic.
[ ] I love/like being neat.
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
[x] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I love white chocolate.
[ ] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[x] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I forget people's names.
[ ] I've called people some other name.
[x] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

[x] My answers are totally honest

okay so I was drinking by myself tonight and i drank a little too much so i apologize for my spelling. Anyways i'm moving to Texas in june. It's going to be crazy but good for me. angel and Scott are coming in in the beginning of may, that should be fun, perhaps her and i can go dress shopping. She's getting married I'm in the wedding it's all good. I just bought myself a gorgeous ring, i miss wearing rings on my fingers, all the ones i've had recently meant something to me and since then the person has screwed me overin one way or another. I want to quit smoking so on my way to work tomorrow I'm going to buy a pack and then that will be it for the week. i'm allowed to smoke at work and on the way to and home from it, and also when I'm out with mmy friends which isn't very often. Other than that I want to be done by May. Beau an di are talking but I'm just still very indifferent towards him so it's just weird at times, I only call him when I'm intoxicated which isn' a good thing but oh well. I'm drunk and I really just want to go to bed but I can't lay down yet so none of this makes senses, so Im sorry. I've been really depressed lately, wanting to cut myself gain but I haven't. and I do have a lot of things to look forward to even if they make me a little nervous. Normally i would take a benadryl to make myself go to sleep but with alcohol it's not the best idea so I have to wait till I see straight before I go back upstairs and attempt to fall asleep. All i want to do is get out of my house every now and then and hang out. i don't totally want to move to texas but i want a friend in my life and right now that's the only place available to me. So it'llbe a big change for me, and I left my dog in my room so I should go check on her. Anyways I love you all. tam an dheath you are the best I iss you two girls and love you to death. And Tam there ain't no mountain high enough.... keri-berry I do love you and miss you if you ever want to talk you know how to et hold of me.
Love y'all.
*muah*

I want to know everyone's definition on rape. So please respond. I need to know your answers to help me. I just want to know what you consider rape. I'll explain more later. Thanks for the help.

So I went to Wisconsin for a visit and it did not turn out well what so ever. A lot of stuff happened some good but most bad. Eventually I will write details but not right now. I'm not comfortable with everything at this moment and I would rather forget most of it. But yeah I'm alive and back in illinois. But I have a cold and need sleep especially since I have to go to work an hour early tomorrow.

I have lived through 100 /158 things

[1] I have eaten more than 5 meals a day.
[2]I have read a lot of books.
[ ]I have run more than 2 miles without stopping.
[ ]I have been to Canada.

[ ] I have been to Europe.
[3] I have watched cartoons for hours.
[4] I have tripped UP the stairs.
[ ] I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs.
[5] I have been snowboarding/skiing.

[6] I have played ping pong.
[ ] I swam in the ocean.
[ ] I have been on a whale watch.
[7] I have seen fireworks.

[8] I have seen a shooting star.
[9] I have seen a meteor shower.
[ ] I have almost drowned.
[ ] I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear.

[10] I have listened to one cd over & over & over again.
[11] I have had stitches.
[12] I have been on the honor roll.
[ ] I have had frostbite.
[ ] I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there
[13] I have stayed up til 2 doing homework/projects.
[14] I currently have a job.
[15] I have been ice skating.
[16] I have been rollerblading.
[17] I have fallen flat on my face.

[18] I have tripped over my own two feet.
[19] I have been in a fist fight.
[20] I have played videogames for more than 3 hours straight.
[21] I have watched the power rangers.

[ ] I do attend Church regularly.
[22] I have played truth or dare.
[23] I have already had my 16th birthday.
[24] I have already had my 17th birthday.
[ ] I've lost weight since one year ago.
[25] I've called someone stupid and mean it
[26] I've been in a verbal argument.
[ ] I've cried in school.

[ ] I've played baseball on a team.
[ ] I've played soccer on a team.
[ ] I've done cheerleading on a team.
[ ] I've played softball on a team.
[27] I've played volleyball on a team.

[ ] I've played tennis on a team.
[ ] I've been on a track team.
[28] I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life.
[ ] I've bungee jumped.

[ ] I've climbed a rock wall.
[29] lost more than $20.
[30] I've called myself an idiot.
[31]I've called someone else an idiot.
[32]I've cried myself to sleep.
[33]I've had (or have) pets.

[34] I've owned a spice girls cd.
[ ]I've owned a britney spears cd
[ ] I've owned an N*Sync cd.
[35] I've owned a backstreet boys cd.

[36] I've mooned someone.
[37]I've sworn at someone in authority.
[38] I've been in the newspaper.
[39] I've been on TV.

[ ] I've been to Hawaii.
[40] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been on the other side of a waterfall.
[41] I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies.
[42] I've watched all of the Harry Potter movies.
[ ] I've watched all of the Rocky movies.
[43]I've watched the 3 stooges.
[44] I've watched "Newly weds" Nick & Jessica.
[45] i've watched looney tunes
[ ] I've been stuffed into a locker.

[ ] I've been called a geek.
[46] I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade.
[47] I had not studied at all for a test and aced it.

[48] I've hugged my mom within the past 24 hrs.
[49] I've hugged my dad within the past 24 hours.
[ ] I've met a celebrity/music artist.
[50] I've written poetry
[ ] I've been arrested
[ ] I've been attracted to someone much older than me.
[51] I've been tickled till I've cried.
[52] I tickled someone else until they cried.
[53]I've had/have siblings.
[ ] I've been to a rock concert.

[54] I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it.
[55] I've been in a play.
[56] I've been picked last in gym class.
[ ] I've been picked first in gym class.
[57] I've been picked in that middle-range in gym class.

[58] I've cried in front of my friends.
[59] I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages.
[60] I've played Halo 2.
[61] I've freaked out over a sports game
[ ] I've been to alaska

[ ] I've been to China.
[ ] I've been to Spain.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[62] I've had a fight with someone on AIM.
[63]I've had a fight with someone face-to-face.
[64] I've had serious conversations on any IM.

[65] I've forgiven someone who has done something wrong to me.
[66] I've been forgiven.
[67] I've screamed at a scary movie.
[68] I've cried at a chick flick.

[69]I've watched a lot of action movies.
[70] I've screamed at the top of my lungs.
[ ] I've been to a rap concert.

[ ] I've been to a hip hop concert.
[71] I've lived in more than 2 houses.
[72] I've driven on the highway
[73] I've driven more than 40 miles in a day
[ ] I've been in a car accident

[74] I've drank alcohol.
[ ] I've been homesick.
[75] I've thrown up
[ ] I've puked all over someone.
[76] I've been horseback riding.

[ ] I've filled out more than 10 myspace surveys.
[77] I've spoken my mind in public.
[78] I've proved someone wrong
[ ] I've been proved wrong by someone.
[ ] I've broken a leg.

[ ] I've broken an arm.
[79]I've fallen off a swing.
[80] I've swung on a swing for more than 30 mins straight.
[81] I've watched Winnie the Pooh movies.
[82] I've forgotten my backpack when I've gone to school.

[ ] I've lost my backpack.
[ ] I've come close to dying.
[83] I've seen someone die.
[84] I've known someone who has died.
[ ] I've wanted to be an actor/actress at some point.

[85]I've forgotten to brush my teeth some mornings.
[86] I've taken something/someone for granted.
[87] I've realized how good my life is.
[88]I've counted my blessings.

[89] I've made fun of a classmate.
[90] I've been on a date.
[91] I've been asked out by someone and I said no.
[ ] I've asked someone out and was turned down.

[92]I've slapped someone in the face.
[93] I've been skateboarding.
[94] I've been backstabbed by someone I thought was a friend.
[95] I've lied/ fibbed to someone to their face.
[96] I've told a little white lie.

[97] I've taken a day off from school just so I don't go insane.
[98] I've fainted
[ ] I've had an argument with someone about whether cheerleading is a sport or not.
[99] I've pushed someone into a pool
[100] I've been pushed into a pool

Now count how many things you checked and repost this, subject being, "I have lived through (number)/158 things



Yes/No

Given a hickey?:yes a few people actually
Singing in the shower?: yes all the time
gotten a hickey?: yes i like to be bit
Spit in someone's Drink?: yes they deserved it
Played with Barbie?: yes I made my brothers play with them too
Made someone cry?: yes eh they were dicks
Opened your Christmas presents early?: yes that's the fun part about finding them when your parents aren't home
Lied to a friend?: yes it's part of life
Broken a bone?: yes it's still broken too, healed that way
Seen "The Goonies" more than 10 times?: no, I've seen it just not that many times
Stolen something: yes who doesn't at one point in time or another
Played a Computer game for more than 5 hours?: yes they can be addicting
Ran through the sprinklers naked?: yes I was covered in mud from wrestling what were we supposed to do
Went outside naked?: yes naked is refreshing
Flashed somebody?: yes it was only tami and kristen and elise
Mooned somebody?: yes kristen made me
Been on stage?: yes i hated it too
Been on stage naked or close to it?: No
Been in a parade?: yes girl scouts what a blast
Been in a school play?: yes still hated it
Been on a plane: yes that was interesting
Been on a cruise?: no
Stayed awake for 48 hours?: yes jana what a spirit she is i miss her
Broken into a house?: no
Gotten a tattoo?: No i really want one though
Gotten piercings?: yes but i need to repierce them
Gotten into a fist fight?: yes she deserved it and so did he
Gotten into a shouting match?: yes oh those are fun the other person always loses
Swallowed sea/pool water?: yep when you get dunked and don't expect it it's bound to happen
Smoke marijana: yes and it's nice I don't mind it I haven't done it for quite some time but it was nice when i did
Spun yourself in circles to get dizzy on purpose?:yes that's fun especially at night and you spin concentrating on one star then you stop still staring at that star
Laughed so hard it hurt?:yes and man does it hurt
Tripped on your own feet? yes ya always feel stupid when you do it too
Cried yourself to sleep?: yes men are dicks
Cried in public?: yes sometimes you just break down
Thrown up in public?: no I tend to puke in private
Lied to your parents?: yes they are my parents hello
Cried so hard you threw up?: No
Gone skinny dipping: yes and that was sort of awkward
Skydived: no
Gotten jealous: yes and no I don't know if I would call it jealousy or something else
fried an egg on the sidewalk? no
Gotten drunk: yep lots of times and plan to do it again and again
Screamed so loud you turned red: yes sometimes you just got to let it out
Burned an ant with a magnifying glass: no that's mean
Had Drunken Sex: yes my morals were a little loose this past year
Had drunken make-out sessions: yep but those are ok
Seen at least 3 of your same sex friends naked: yes we shower together what I can I say

So i just popped my knee out of place and it really fucking hurts right now I'm afraid to stand up and pop it back in but I know I have to because I need to go to bed. Anywas a short update at the end of the month I'm travelling up to wisconsin for five days, I have my time off of work and it looks like everything is set and ready. I started a new diet and I don't know how that is going because I refuse to weigh myself. Plus I have issues exercising because by the time I get home from work my knee is no good. But i do a lot at work so it sort of makes up for it, at least I think so. I'm slowly planning for the future. I should get my goal list out and see if I have met any of them yet since I am half way to my six month goals. I should be getting paid at one of my jobs this week so that's good and hopefully i will be getting my bank card soon which reminds me I need to order checks, someone leave me a comment so when i check my e-mail tomorrow I will remember to do that. okay I need to get going it's after eleven. Grr... freaking early morning work schedule on the weekends.

dy: W O U L D Y O U R A T H E R?

01. Pierce your nose or tongue?: tongue, I've thought about it a few times, I just don't like needles and being a waitress and an adoption counselor seven days a week sort of puts a damper on getting your tongue pierced being that I have to talk to people with my jobs so not being able to annunciate for a few days wouldn't quite work.
02. Be serious or be funny?: funny unless it was a fairly serious matter, I just prefer humor in situations than always being serious
03. Drink whole or skim milk?: whole, it's filled with nutrients
04. Die in a fire or drown?: drown, melting to death does not sound like fun and it sounds more painful plus I think it takes longer
05. Spend time with your parents or enemies?: umm... I guess my parents since I'm currently living with them I spend a lot of time with them anyways

A R E Y O U. .

01. Simple or complicated?: depends who you ask but I would lean more towards simple than complicated but then again everyone is simpleand complicated it just depends on how you look at them
02. Gay?: nope, thought about it just haven't done anything with it
03. Hardcore?: hardcore with what? In general I'd say no, but some people may argue, I have my moments just like everyone.

D O Y O U P R E F ER . .

01. Flowers or candy?: flowers, they make me smile and brighten my day, I do prefer plants over cut flowers though, that way I don't have to watch them die unless they are bulbs or pointsettas, I never have any luck with pointsettas, I swear they are christmas season only, my two that I have are finally dying.
02. Gray or black?: black it makes me look thinner.
03. Color or Black and white photos?: black and white look timeless, like the picture will last forever. I think they are beautiful but most photos I have are colored.
05. Sunrise or sunset?: sunrise, I remember watching this one sunrise with a frend my freshman year of college, she called me "my sunrise" for the rest of the day because the colors we saw that morning looked like my hair.
06. M&Ms or Skittles?: m&ms they melt in your mouth not in your hand
07. Staying up late or waking up early?: staying up late I talk to my friends at night, and it's the only time I have to myself because everyone else in the house is asleep, time alone isn't always a good thing but sometimes it is relaxing

A N S W E R T R U T H F U L L Y !!

01. Do you like anyone?: no, I don't know anyone down here to like.
02. Do they know it?: obviously not

D O Y O U P R E F E R. .

01. Sun or moon?: moon, I've seen some gorgeous moons in wisconsin, blood red ones, blazing orange, shimmering gold, I just think it's so beautiful and mysterious.
02. Winter or Fall?: fall, the weather is usually pretty nice and the changing seasons is gorgeous
03. Left or right?: right I tried the left and decided it didn't work for me so now it's back to the right
04. 10 acquaintances or having two best friends?: two best friends because no matter what they will be there through thick and thin.
05. Sun or rain?: this one is tough because the sun beating on my skin and be so soothing but the cooling rain is refreshing. I guess if I had to choose and I couldn't get both I would have to say the sun.
06. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?: vanilla, too much chocolate just gets tiring, but you can never have too much vanilla
07. Boys or girls?: girls are more understanding but I usually prefer the way guys handle a lot of things and when it comes to anything serious where girls may want to talk about it and try to make you cry about it, guys will just hand you a beer and watch the game with you. So I guess I would have to say guys.
08. vodka or Jack?: ooooooo tough, depends on my mood, but I guess Jack even though I haven't had it for awhile. I've had some bad experiences with vodka as well as good ones, but I've never really had any bad with jack

A B O U T Y O U!

01. What time is it?: 10:46 p m
02. Name?: Tracy Drufke
03. Nickname(s): Druf, T, tray, Trace, tur tur, turkey, playa, Cornocopia, chicken little
04. What is your birthdate?: 12/21/83
05. What do you want?: a hug
06. Where do you want to live?: anywhere as long as I live
07. How many kids do you want?: 4, I preferably want to adopt teenagers but it's negotiable

U N I Q U E !

01. Nervous Habit?: twirl my hair
03. Can you roll your tongue?: yes
04. Can you raise one eyebrow?: yep
05. Can you cross your eyes?: I don't know and i can't really tell unless I try and someone tells me cause I can't look at myself when I do that, I know my sister and cousin can so maybe I can
06. Do you make your bed daily?: nope, what's the point I'm just going to mess it up at the end of the day

R A N D O M:

01. Which shoe goes on first?: whichever one I find first
02. Ever thrown something at someone?: yep it's fun to do, the only times I can remeber doing out of anger was when I was younger other than that just for fun and games
03. On the average, how much money do you carry with you?: whatever i have in cash usually no more than fifty
04. What jewelry do you wear?: none, I need to re pierce my ears (which I'll do myself soon enough), and I have two rings that I wear when I go out as well as two braclets but with work I can't really wear jewelry because it will get caught on something

I N T H E L A S T M O N T H , H A V E Y O U ?

01. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend: nope and I'm not ready for anything serious, wouldn't mind dating, but I don't think I'm ready for anything beyond that right now
02. Bought something: yep I've been buying a new wadrobe slowly but surely
03. Sang: yep whenever I'm in the car and I hear a song I like
04. Been kissed: nope and I miss it
05. Been hugged: yep
06. Felt stupid: nope, I don't let anyone make me feel stupid
07. Missed someone: oh yeah, I miss my friends more than anything
08. Got drunk: nope, there have been times I wanted to but I always have to drive home, so I couldn't
09. Gotten high: nope I haven't smoked in months and I mean months
10. Danced crazy: nope just haven't had time and I miss that too
11. Gotten your hair cut: nope but I'm planning on it within a week
12. Cried: not really I've been pretty good with holding it back recently
13. Lied: yep but for good reasons
14. Snuck out of the house: nope




HONESTLY, DO WE REALLY CARE? NO BUT I AM BORED...

1. Honestly, are you in love right now? nope and if I have my way I will never be again
2. Honestly, what color is your underwear? it's multi colored
3. Honestly, whats on your mind right now? loneliness, I miss my friends as well as a lot of other stuff
4. Honestly, what are you doing right now? wasting time until I'm tired enough to go to bed
5. Honestly, what did you do today? woke up, showered, worked, computer, movie, this
6. Honestly, do you think you are attractive? nope but I'm planning on changing my view on myself
7. Honestly, have you done something bad today? nope
8. Honestly, do you watch disney channel? only when there is a good movie on
9. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? nope I don't think I am
10. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time? nothing right now really, I've tried surrounding myself with things to make me happy but nothing has worked thus far
11. Honestly, do you bite your nails? only when they are snagging on stuff and I can't find nail clippers or a file
12. Honestly, what is your mood right now? sad
13. Honestly, who do you want to see at this very moment? josh, he can put a smile on my face no matter what is bothering me
14. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret? sort of but one or two people know so I don't know if it's still considered a secret
15. Honestly, do you hate someone right now? no, hates a strong word and i have used it recently but I haven't meant it
16. Honestly, who/what do you want to hug right now? Eddie, or Schreiber either of those men give great great hugs and I need a really awesome hug right now
18. Honestly, are you in denial? nope I'm finally admitting everything to myself and accepting it
19. Honestly, what are you listening to right now? nothing besides the buzzing of the computer and the clicking of the keys
20 Honestly wouldn't you rather be having sex right now? no after a conversation with a friend today I realized it's not all it's cut out to be without the emotions behind it
21. Honestly, do you like someone? nope
22. Honestly, does anyone like you? i do not know the answer to that you'd have to ask others
23. Honestly, is it going anywhere with them? nope
24. Honestly, did you answer all these questions honestly? to the best of my knowledge
25. Honestly, did you notice that there's no 17? no

Put an X by the movies you've seen. If you get more than 125, you're a movie
junkie.
COPY and REPOST

(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Boondock Saints
(x)The Mexican
(x)Fight Club
( ) Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story
( )Blazing Saddles
( )Garden State
(x)The Princess Bride
(x)Young Frankenstien
( ) AnchorMan
(x)Napoleon Dynamite
(x)Saw
( )White noise
( )White Oleander
(x)Anger Management
total here: 10

(x)50 First Dates
( )Jason X
(x) Scream
(x)Scream 2
(x)Scream 3
(x)Scary Movie
(x)Scary Movie 2
( )Scary Movie 3
(x)American Pie
(x)American Pie 2
( )American Wedding
(x)Harry Potter
(x)Harry Potter 2
(x)Harry Potter 3
(x)Harry Potter 4
(x)Resident Evil
( )Resident Evil 2
(x)The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
total here: 14



( )The Village
(x)Donnie Darko
(x)Lilo & Stitch
(x)Finding Nemo
(x)Finding Neverland
(x)13 Ghosts
( )Signs
(x)The Grinch
( )Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( )White Chicks
( )Butterfly Effect
(x)Thirteen going on 30
( )I, Robot
(x)Dodgeball
( )Universal Soldier
(x)A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(x)Along Came A Spider
( )Deep impact
total here: 10

( )KingPin
(x)Never Been Kissed
(x)Meet The Parents
( )Meet the Fockers
(x)Eight Crazy Nights
( )A Cinderella Story
(x)The Terminal
( )The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( )Passport to Paris
(x)Dumb & Dumber
(x)Dumb & Dumberer
( )Final Destination
( )Final Destination 2
(x)Halloween
(x)The Ring
( )The Ring 2
(x)Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle
(x)Practical Magic
(x)Chicago
(x)Ghost Ship
( )From Hell
(x)Hellboy
(x)Secret Window
(x)I Am Sam
( )The Whole Nine Yards
( )The Whole Ten Yards
( )The Day After Tomorrow
( )Child's Play
( )Bride of Chucky
(x)Ten Things I Hate About You
(x)Just Married
(x)Gothika
(x)Nightmare on Elm Street
( )Sixteen Candles
( )Bad Boys
( )Bad Boys 2
( )Joy Ride
( )Seven (SE7EN)
(x)Oceans Eleven
( )Oceans Twelve
( )Identity
total here: 20

( )Lone Star
(x)Predator I
(x)Predator II
(x)Independence day
( )Cujo
( )A Bronx Tale
(x)Darkness Falls
( )Christine
(x)ET
(x)Children of the Corn
(x)My boss' daughter
( )Maid in Manhattan
( )Frailty
( )Best bet
(x)How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x)She's All That
(x)Calendar Girls
( )Sideways
( )Mars Attacks
total here: 10

( )Event Horizon
(x) Ever after
(x) Forrest Gump
( )Big Trouble in Little China
(x) X-men
(x) X-men 2
(x) Catch Me If You Can
(x) The Others
( ) Freaky Friday
( ) Reign of Fire
( ) The Hot Chick
( ) Swimfan
( ) Miracle
(x) Old School
( )Ray
(x) The Notebook
( )K-Pax
total here: 8

( )Daredevil
( )Elektra
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(x) A Walk to Remember
( )boogyman
(x)Hitch
( )Back Door Sluts 9
( )Anal Acres 1
( )Anal Acres 2
( )B-Cup Divas
( )The Fifth Element
( )Star Wars episode I The Phantom Menace
( )Star Wars episode II Attack of The Clones
( )Star Wars episode III Revenge of The Sith
(x)Star Wars episode IV A New Hope
(x)Star Wars episode V The Empire Strikes Back
(x)Star Wars episode VI Return of The Jedi
(x)Troop Beverly Hills
( )Swimming with Sharks
(x) Air Force One
( ) For Richer or Poorer
( )Trainspotting
( )People under the stairs
( )Blue Velvet
( )Sound of music
(x)Parent Trap
( )The Burbs
(x)The Terminator
(x) Terminator 2
(x) Terminator 3
(x)Empire Records
( )SLC Punk
( )Meet Joe Black
( )Wild girls
(x)A Clockwork Orange
(x)The Order
(x)Spiderman
(x)Spiderman 2
( )Amelie
total here: 19


( )Mean Girls
(x)Shrek
(x)Shrek 2
(x)The Incredibles
( )Collateral
(x)The Fast & The Furious
( )2 Fast 2 Furious
( )Sky Captain Of The World Of Tomorrow
( ) Closer
total here: 4


(x)Titanic
(x)Saved
( )Bowling For Columbine
(x)Farenheit 9/11
( )The Sixth Sense
( ) Artificial intelligence (AI)
(x) Love actually
( )Shutter
( ) Ella Enchanted
(x) Princess diaries
(x) Princess diaries 2
( ) Constantine
( )Million Dollar Baby
( )Envy
(x)Eurotrip
( )Malibu's Most wanted
(x)Big Daddy
(x)Black Sheep
(x)The Breakfast Club
( ) West side story
total here: 10


(x)A Christmas Story
( )Spanglish
( )Pulp Fiction
( )Sleepover
(x)The Evil Dead
( )Killer Klowns From Outer Space
( )The Seed of chucky
(x)Vanilla Sky
(x)Nightmare Before Christmas
(x)Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind
(x)Interview With The Vampire
( )The Crow
( )Purple Rain
(x)Reservoir Dogs
(x)Wayne's World
(x)Waynes World 2.
total here: 9


(x)21 Grams
( )Blow
(x)Edward Scissorhands
(x)Clerks
(x)Beauty and the Beast
( )Guess who
( )Monster in-law
(x)Elf
(x)stuart little
(x)stuart little 2
(x)Mall Rats
(x)Chasing Amy
(x)Dogma
(x)Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back
total here: 11

(x)Beetlejuice
(x)The Last Samurai
(x)The Amityville Horror
( )The Aviator
(x)Romeo and Juliet
( )Barbershop
( )Beauty Shop
(x)Legally blonde
(x)Legally blonde 2
( )the forgotten
( )confessions of a teenage drama queen
( )the grudge
total here: 6

TOTAL: 131

okay news news news, right? that's what everyone wants no more surveys or quizzes, some actual facts of life would be good for now. Well let's see...
My gerbil Eclipse died. So now I have no more gerbils.
But after Christmas I got a cute dwarf hamster named Spunky. As well as another parakeet so Melody wouldn't be alone since her cage mates died months ago. I also have a small goldfish tank. that's it for new pets no more.
I have a job at a restaraunt which I will be quitting soon because they don't give me enough hours and it's just not worth my time now since I got my dream job. I got hired at the humane society! go me! I rule! I've wanted this job for years and now I finally have it. I will be working full time plus I'll be getting over time every week, and there are benefits as well. So everything I want I have.
I'm taking time off at the end of February to go to Wisconsin for Karra's birthday, plus to take a little vacation from my parents.
I have no life since I've been back in Illinois. I have absolutely nothing to do. no social life what so ever. It gets really crappy and for a while was getting me really depressed. But I've been doing so much better and have taken a different outlook on a lot of things that have been bothering me. So, I'm doing a lot better and am definitely looking forward to taking a vacation and getting away from my lovely family.
Other than that there's not much going on with me. I will try updating more since hopefully I will stay in a better mood which means I would have happier things to write about.
Oh yeah I'm also dieting, trying to eat healthier and exercise more. The exercising isn't going so well, my animals keep getting in my way and tripping me, which screws up my knee and then I have to wait til that feels better to try again. But hey I'm trying to damn it! Then in February I'm getting a manicure, eyebrow wax, and a hair cut and style before I go up to wisconsin. Then when I'm up there Elise and I are going to play with colors in my hair. So yep, I'm working on changing myself on the outside as well as on the inside and hopefully I will get my life back together a lot quicker then initially expected.
I love all of you and miss you.
*muah*

I know I haven't written in here in awhile, or at least not about anything meaningful. I want to but everytime I try my mind goes blank. So it will come eventually I just don't know when. So, I'm still here and alive. I wish everyone the best for the new year and hope I'll make it through.